Random Ramble.

I'm not quite sure what to say,

So I've just decided to write.

I've decided to write about the nights that I can't sleep cause,

Well, your on my brain.

I mean i know its insane

The fact that I still remain in the past.

There so much I would like to ask but uh,

Truth hurts sometimes.

So I lay in the dark

As the sun rests.

I try to digest

The emptiness that lies in my stomach.

And as the moon shines,

My mind rewinds

To that place in time where you were mine.

Well, sort of.

No way is this ordinary,

Actually it is extraordinarily,

Unfortunate.

I feel like, I always write about the same thing.

I feel that every damn poem I write has the mentioning of,

You.

At some point, at some day,

At a specific time, I guess I'll realize..

It.

No one understand what "It" is cause I cant quite verbalize "It".

Or describe it, for that matter.

I've always been told

"Don't let a man make or break you"

And, you don't.

But Quite honestly you do.

This isn't really a poem, per say.

It just happens to rhyme.

This is some real shit

That constantly goes through my mind.

10 years could pass,

And I could see you walking by.

And again I'd be in the same place.

Rewriting this first line.

Damn.

Life sucks sometimes.

dreams.

i wake up thinking about you sometimes.

about the lost opportunity

which was you and me

but it got lost, in eternity.

or yesterday.

considering we couldn't even make it until tomorrow.

sigh.

full of sorry.

i turn over,

and go back to sleep.

hello dreams.

Seasons of Love.

We met a while back.

I remember it was Spring

Brand New Love.

Beautiful mornings

I used to love hearing how the birds would sing

Its as if they were singing their melody, intentionally for me.

And you.

See, we, were so amazing.

We were everything that spring could be

We were April showers, dripping wet

Turning into may flowers, as we bloomed

And relaxed, like the gentle breeze.

Spring Time was everything..Until the Summer.

Summer brought life to things.

Walks through the park in the Sun

Ice cream dripping..

And ending up in places where it shouldn't be

But who cared right?

It was my Summer, care free.

And yours too right?

Hey whatever.

As long as we were together, there was nothing to lose.

BBQ's and Fourth of July.

Fireworks, but they weren't outside..

See, we, were so amazing.

Shinning bright like the Summer sun..

That is until Autumn would come.

I remember before departure,

Clothes would drop like autumn leaves

Yellow, Brown, Orange, Green.

A mixture of colors as we would fall to the ground

And played around..

In the leaves of course.

It started getting a little chilly out.

And I could feel it.

Not just in the air, but in the depths of my soul.

Even though Summer only just left, I felt dramatically cold.

Confusion on what to wear.

My heart, or my sweater.

Wouldn't want it to get blown away in this confusion of windy weather.

See, we, were so amazing.

But i begin to notice that I'm speaking in past tense

Autumn winds stole my Spring and Summer.

And to Winter, it went.

Cold.

Very cold.

Frostbitten and bitter.

I don't quite understand how seasons change

And I'm not liking Winter.

I don't quite understand how April showers bring the rain

To bring may flowers, which mask the pain.

And I don't understand why the flowers die when Autumn returns again.

Or how winter destroys everything in its path

With something as simple as white snow.

Maybe I couldn't see it it coming

But the trees, flowers, and grass, they knew

Thats why they lost their beautiful hues of greens, and pinks.

And turned into yellows and browns.

They shut down, because they knew what was coming, and prepared themselves for winter.

See, we, were so amazing.

But nature knew better.

Those leaves were my warning

For the upcoming weather.

Its Spring again.

Beautiful Mornings

And i remember how amazing we used to be

The birds are singing.

But I can't quite understand the songs anymore

I guess their no longer meant for me.

seaons of a shining star.

a wise woman once told me

"it was in your eyes"

but what did she see?

the happiness?

or the hurt and the lies..

after a while, you learn how to cry,

without tears.

you learn how to deal with days,

that turn in to years,

that turn into seasons.

of hurt and depression.

forget the recession,

cause you don't leave the house anyways.

cause your in the daze

cause of this thing called love

What was sent to you from up above.

or possibly below..

It could sleet, rain, freeze, or snow

but you wouldn't know

cause your still blinded by your star

your shining start that has ran out of light

and all that remains in a black piece of coal.

but you refuse to see the sight of

your good thing going bad

your happiness turning into something sad

which eventually turns into something bad

which later turns into something you wish you had

because that star, left you and went to another galaxy.

shitt. idk how to end this. ima just leave it at that.

Stranger.

I saw you today..
But i wasn't quite sure who you were
I though I saw a familiar glimmer in your eyes
But it faded rather quickly.
Maybe it was just me, and i imagined it was there
I swear I know you, from some time, somewhere..
But the blank stare you give me, convinces that I'm wrong
So i keep moving on, forward.
But I cant help to look back
To stare at a face that looks so familiar
And I find it rather peculiar
That I have no idea who you are.
I have no memories, or recollection of who you could be
Or what you meant to me
Or why this is even so important to me,
I find it quite interesting..
That your presence is haunting me
As if you and me use to be in a past life or something.
Silly me, foolish, and simple ol' me
I think too much about too many silly things
About this stranger who I've never seen
Who has some type of weird hold on me.
Who keeps bringing back the familiar feeling that I don't need
So on that note, i drift away from my silly day dreams.
And realize why I no longer talk to strangers

endless road.

in darkness my thoughts lay lonely,in search for somethin new.

i find myself getting closer to nothing.

quiting is not an option but heart ache is disowning.

heartache is disowning, and my mind is racing.

i cant feel my heart beating, but yet i feel it aching.

maybe im mistaking my lonliness for my independence.

or perhaps the simple bliss that im searching for is at the end of a road that is actually..endless.

winter vs. spring

i once loved you name.

i would write it everday.

but now its like it washed away,

like the sand on the bay. my tear drops wont fall.

they are masked by the storm.

i gave you my all. in return my heart got torn.

blown away with the leaves. my feeling reseed. then the cold comes like winter.

my soul takes heed. this is the weather of love, so cold indeed.

so cold indeed,

the wind chills my soul.

i dont know what happened, but our love grew old.

things get better with time right? but i guess i was wrong.

the love we had faded, that once used to be so strong.

spring is coming, but i cant feel its warmth nor sunshine.

cause this time, yes this time, your love is no longer mine

props to cjh.